wow. this is probably the longest moodswing/i hate people phase i've been through in a long time. i'll be spending a lot of time by myself this week, all of next week and the week after. i want to go skiing the first weekend in february but my finances may not allow. at the same time i just am not feeling being around people.

school was okay. i had kindy kids. they are always lovely. but they just made me think about my niece and my sister who i miss. my godbaby who will be 1 year old March 18th and I still haven't planned what I'll do for her yet.

i just feel this planning thing. i have to plan what i'm doing this weekend and all the weekends until school is out. i want to plan bb's bday shindig. i want to plan what i'm going to do after i have to leave JET (since i have decided to stay another year). i need a plan for every fuckin' thing and that's getting on my nerves.

i need a new friend. i said it tonight to BB as a joke, but i think i do. he's always tired and i'll wanna talk and i can hear in his voice that he is ready to go or that there's something else he wants to do. which is fine because he works hard and deserves his evening time, but i guess that's how it is once you get comfortable with someone. they don't have to try so hard to be interested. not that he is disinterested, but not so much as he was. i need something new.